forgive & forget?

A month passed by without any entry :(. Been quite bz lately. Time sure flies fast. Faster than we thought. A few things that i want to jot down here...

Forgive n forget???? Again, it is easier said than done. When u r in the situation itself, u'll know how hard it is for u to forget. Especially if u r badly hurt by it.

Bowling???? Sorry...not my game. Call me kolot or whatever. It's just not the game that i would want myself to be seen in.

Hhmmmm... feeling depressed? i think so. so many factors contribute to this inconvenient situation that i'm in.

Hope for a better tomorrow.

*v* 06 July 2010

Journal 25.05.2010

It's so hard to live with somebody who is not your muhrim. This is my situation since 3 weeks ago (which i feel like 3 years already, i juz cant bear it). I have to wear tudung the moment i step out of my bedroom. I have to wake up very early to prepare my kids for school; breakfast, snack/meal pack, etc. And all of these are very inconvenient for me. Ney ndak malar jak mood swing. Giney nak masak awal2 pagi bertudung2. rasa berkumbuk jak di dapur. tensennnn!!!! Panas! Berpeluh! dah mandi pun rasa lom mandi. This is unbearable... but i have no way out at the moment. Tried to tell myself to be patient but patience do have its limit. Kmk tok manusia biasa, bukannya malaikat. Tried very much to motivate myself with lots & lots of positive thinking everytime i feel stressed but to no avail. It is easier said than done. :(

20.05.2010

Had a nap after lunch, sambil menidurkan Erdina. She has flu and cough so i forced her to take a rest. After the nap, i felt dizzy and called the office saying i cudnt come. Somehow, the office needed me. So, no choice... i had to go to the office. Before i put on my scarf, suddenly everything went blank and the next thing i knew, i was on the floor. I guessed i knocked on the dining table and two of the chairs because both chairs were stumbled. Then only i felt pain at my right knee. Is something wrong with me? Hmmm.. i regained my energy and drove to office carefully. in case it comes again and launch another attack....

This is one of the signs of old age....

13.05.2010

Hidup ini penuh dugaan. Syaitan & iblis sentiasa mengganggu fikiran & cuba utk menggoda. Ya Allah, tetapkan lah hati hamba mu ini agar tidak tersesat & tidak melakukan perkara2 yang boleh mendatangkan keburukan kepada ku mahupun keluargaku yang tersayang. Amin. Pelihara lah hamba mu yang dhaif ini ya Allah.

Ery, 13.05.2010

11.05.2010

The love of my life


We'll be together forever, come rain or shine.